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2026-05-25 - (one text message)

ohhhh journal... that decision was a bit more life altering than i expected! lowkey a text message became about a hundred text messages at least 20 phone calls and now a plane ticket (in my head i said this like heath ledger in 10 things i hate about you). i am not as depressed as i was in february but GOD april was rough. so much fun but so busy and so brutal AUGUHHGHGH i went insane. but now i'm better! at least by a little! and i cleaned my whole room! for ummm no reason no one will be staying in it aaand no text messages resulted in anything crazy and oh my god OH MY GOD oh my goddd anyway! i just had my dinner (11pm?) and some sleepytime tea (appropriate timing). i'm on facetime with max talking about work and we're acting like tomorrow isn't going to flip the world upside down. i need to do laundry and go to sleep so i can wake up early and remember all of the things i forgot to do today. i wrote in my notes a while ago (when i thought days like tomorrow were impossible) "i hope things go how my heart is begging them to". now i think that they really might. but! first sleep!!! goodbye little journal... i hope someone out there reads this :) goodnight zzzzzzzzz

2026-02-24 - im eating a pickle (multiple pickle)

HI JOURNAL!!! im less sad this update. im insane and depressed and making massive life altering decisions (one text message) but im being super chill about it. im eating mini pickles that i bought because a cool girl in a hi-vis vest at walmart said "those are literally the best pickles. i have a jar in my basket already if you don't believe me." but i did believe her so i bought them! i want to update here more often but i gotta get my life together and have free time again. i'm supposed to be cleaning right now so obviously my brain is gonna find literally anything else to do... hence... web journal update... but i must go!!!!!! goodbye devoted web journal followers!

2026-02-18 - it's been a minute!!

hello journal... i haven't been updating this or working on my website much 1. because i went on a trip 2. because i have a job and was busy but also 3. my grandma passed a week ago. i don't really plan on using this journal as somewhere to vent, but i don't really know where to put this feeling right now. she is the reason i am who i am today. it feels very heavy tonight and i don't doubt that i will always feel that weight. just needed to put that somewhere. here is a very blurry and unflattering photo of her from a camera i found in my grandpa's office/my old bedroom because it's the only photo i can find.

2026-02-3 - HOLY SHIT

I DID IT!!!!!!!! shoutout cori and w3schools.com... this world is beautiful and now my journal is on cute little pieces of paper. yay!!!!! and im eating pad thai. life cant get better

2026-02-03 - my second entry!! (this shit is hard)

hello journal!! this is lowkey unreadable right now because i cannot figure out how to make textboxes for the life of me. its ok its called learning yayyy also i forgot to add the date on the last one so lowkey idk when i wrote it LOL thatsok. back to trying to make a textbox... thanks for reading!!!! !:D

2026-01-?? - my first entry

hello!! i am still figuring out how all of this works... i think it will take a lot of practice... but this is all so cool and exciting!! however it is 5 am so i may need to throw in the towel for tonight... thanks for reading!